yadaaaa brain drain

i just recently decided to start blogging again.
if any of you remember livejournal, i used to be sucked to my computer screen everyday for about 2-3 hours a day spilling my guts out like an angsty teenager through livejournal's pages.
if one can believe it, livejournal was way more popular than myspace. myspace sounded scary and stupid and really unappealing, yet i got one when i was 15 and it still horrifies me. i regret leaving livejournal in a way only because i'm not as upfront with my feelings anymore and when i would journal online, i felt as though if i could spill it to my friends and randomly anonymous people on there, why not in real life? i faced several fears and i feel like this time in my life i need a small push to keep saying what i feel in real life. so, here i go. i hope this works out.

if not forever, just for christmas break while all i do all day is read, write, play music, and listen to music.
i am scratching in a dark hole.