things i've learned or realized recently

1. jean harlow and i share the same birthday
2. feeling something means a LOT more than believing through thought and sight
3. my dog has a lot of tumors and has been sleeping too much since i have been away
4. i want to jump out of my body and leave. i am not content with this or you& i never will be
5. you don't understand and i am stubborn
6. i am still adopting chernobyl affected children when i get out of college whether or not i marry
7. i'm in love with one of my best friends, i'm not naive and i know what love is now. i had the feelings and i still have them and will always
8. i havent told him the extent of my feelings
9. i want to become a traveling bag lady who develops egyptian eyes and scorns you with crosses even though i have never shared an adequate religious experience
10. i am a hypchondriac because i don't ever believe what doctors have to say
11. i have had atleast one nightmare every night while tossing and turning, even though i moved my bed to face an open doorway and i haven't drank any milk within one hour of me falling asleep each evening
12. speaking of MILK, after seeing that movie i now realize why every love of my life has turned out to be gay. its my fault to loving you too much. damn you for pulling me in so tight and pushing me back so far
13. i live, laugh, and cry so hard but i could care less about attention
14. the sun feels really nice on my feet and still don't admire the idea of wearing shoes outside
15. my favourite words consist of sword and shampoo